Lent (v)

A break from poking at scabs and healing wounds during this Lenten blogging for my QT dead. It’s alternatively a bit uncomfortably vulnerable, and based on prior accidents, risks getting the attention of you-know-Who. So, from the depths of my documents for chatting with my QT dead (“T 2015”), an entry from January touched on a flag blanket.

At the time, I was spitballing the different purposes for such a blanket:

It could serve as the representation of the flag for rituals, and things could be planned to be on it (sacred cloth on the ground, perhaps, more so than an altar cloth, but it just depends). In ritual, it could also provide a feeling of safety as a blanket, which could be strengthening or bond-building when it comes to sharing and passing the blanket from one person to the next. I might be able to get one per person even, so that everyone can bring their own to a ritual and use it at home (partially as community building).

Have I ever actually taken part in a group ritual? Do I have access to a group of people who would even want a flag blanket after a ritual took place? Do I have access to non-pagans who would want a flag blanket? No, on all fronts. However, that’s just how some of the speculative entries rolled (coming up with solo and potential group ideas).

At the time, I was specifically focused on an idea around the trans flag as a blanket, but honestly, this could be as general (a rainbow flag for the whole LGBTQIA+ community) or specific as someone wanted to get. Change up the size for a small personal shrine, make a table runner, join together a bunch of different flags, loads of possibilities.

Mystery Yarn

Surprise! Your grandmother has been cleaning out the dusty corners of her house and the spiders have gifted her with yarn that has been labeled and yarn that has not.


1 skein, 3.5 oz, of Lion Brand Sayelle (Discontinued). Color: Pastel Yellow. Weight: Worsted / 4 ply.


1 skein, 4 oz, of unknown brand. Color: Pastel chartreuse (discolored portions are dust, I think). Weight: Worsted (probably).


A bag of miscellaneous:

  • A ball (amount and weight unknown) of white yarn with sparkly interwoven bits.
  • Darice (Nylon Plus *), 2 ply, 20 yds apiece of – Black, Blue, Yellow, Green, Red, and Gold (label removed and in a ball).

* 100% nylon needlecraft yarn. “The quality standard for plastic, woven, and knitted canvas.” It feels stiffer (coarser?) than what I’m used to. Is this for those ‘oversized needle and sew the design we’ve provided’ projects (sort of like embroidery on steroids)? ((I have no idea what to do with this bag.))

Irish Hiking Scarf

While I initially wrote that I was going to just add on sequences for that prayer shawl (Bargain Matinee Prayer Shawl), I decided to give double stranding a try just to see the visual difference. It’s . . . a lot more attention that I have to give to the act of knitting and purling than I’m used to, so I finished the scarf I started after those fingerless gloves instead.


Pattern by Adrian Bizilia

As opposed to the mitts I finished not that long ago, I didn’t make unintentional or intentional changes to the pattern, so I’m not making a point of sharing it. Reminder: It’s a free pattern to download at the link above.

The only thing that I didn’t really think about was that the type of color variation in this yarn was different than what I’ve used previously. I’ve used a Red Heart yarn that switched from color 1 to 2 to 3, back to 1, and repeated in that way. This almost looks like I knit with a bunch of individual colors that I joined together as I went. (My family still thinks it looks alright, and this is a gift for a relative, so I’m not overly concerned with it. Just something to keep in mind when I ask someone to pick out a color changing yarn for Xmas to work with.)

Lent (iv)

On the one hand, a part of me is quite alright with not thinking about why some Christians make their claims about homosexuality. On the other hand, my QT dead are doing the ancestral equivalent of a side eye because my WIP Judas Kiss clearly shows that some demons are still being exorcised about this. However, ironically, it was when a queer Jewish blogger I follow on tumblr reblogged something that I was hit upside the head with a clue-by-four. (And some Lenten blogging for my Christian QT dead means I am sharing what probably isn’t revolutionary with you guys.)

Even as someone who doesn’t go looking for Christian spaces, I still hear about some anti-gay shit, but it’s always Old Testament verses. This isn’t to say that anyone going off on those tangents is actually right, and it was more through Jewish bloggers that I realized there’s been a lot chewed over when it comes to cultural changes, translations, and all that, which typically clarifies that those verses are not about modern same-sex relationships as we think of them. The clue-by-four: The really sensational anti verses are from books that Christians classify as Old Testament and the whole bloody point of the Jesus-Cross-Shindig was that Christians took the Old Testament out of their spiritual contract with God.

Now, this doesn’t mean it’s a bad thing to provide more of the context for those Old Testament verses, but I honestly don’t remember some of the Christian Protestants doing a very good job of that. Like, what are they even doing looking at Leviticus in the first place? It’s one thing for the Jewish people to talk about the Torah because it relates to their religion, community, and – you know – them. Yeah, I know, I’m 15 minutes late, and I didn’t even bring Starbucks.

Just. The amount of emotional pain all over theologically unsound shit. *frustrated sighing*

Writing Projects NOS

I’ve been chipping away at chapter uploading here (backdating) and on tumblr because I fell out of the habit of posting progress after tumblr’s policy update, figuring out imports, and trying to get back to blogging. I don’t particularly want to have a separate writing project tag here for each story or fanfic I work on, but I don’t want to ignore them just because Someone didn’t claim them. So I’m putting them off “Other Writing Projects” (new submenu) for now.

Writing Projects

-> Kintsugi

-> Darkling (series) – Part One: Ophiuchus

-> Other Writing Projects

–>> Veela – Le Coeur du Soldat: Soldier’s Heart (series) – Part One: Step 1: Honesty

–>> Rats – Grey Shades of Love

The big difference in terms of how I may write about these stories here is that I’m not going to do the full intro, chapter specific, and excerpts in individual posts route as the stories upload. If they’re mentioned at all, it’s just whatever I may think is relevant (f’ex, from “Rats”, Transmogrification Potion as HRT proxy because there’s no way that trans witches, wizards, and wixen somehow magically do not exist in the Wizarding world).

Irish Hiking Mitts (Right)

Pic of left and right fingerless gloves and the leftover yarn (unweighed = Idk how much much).

Part II: I didn’t lose quite as much time getting the process of knitting in-the-round down, but I still wasn’t exactly thrilled with the right one.

Pattern by iknit2purl2

C4B: Slip 2 sts onto cable needle (CN) and place at back of work. K2 then K2 from CN.

Notation: I realize it saves space in the pattern to just make a note to repeat rows, but I mentally can’t save that in my immediate attention when also concentrating on the row pattern, repeating the correct row three more times, juggling needles, and not completing this in one sitting. My handwritten copy of the pattern therefore has a few notes about that (reflected below).

Alteration: It kinda looks like I’m trying to wear something I’ve outgrown if I stop at row 44, so I went to 47 (BO instead of 48), which matches what I did in the left one. In this one specifically, I wanted to avoid picking up stitches for the thumb (indicated below).

Briar’s Right Pattern

CO 42 sts and divide among 3 needles.

Row 1: {K1, P1, K4, P1}; repeat 5 times.

Rows 2 – 4: Repeat Row 1.

Row 5: {K1, P1, C4B, P1}; repeat 2 times. {K1, P1, knit to next to the last stitch, P1}.

Row 6: {K1, P1, K4, P1}; repeat 2 times. {K1, P1, knit to the next to the last stitch, P1}.

Rows 7 – 9: Repeat Row 6.

Row 10: Repeat Row 5.

Repeat Rows 6 – 10 three more times (cable row bolded):

11, 12, 13, 14, (15)

16, 17, 18, 19, (20)

21, 22, 23, 24, (25)

Right Hand Thumb Increases

Row 26: Work Row 6 pattern for 23 sts, place Marker, M1, K1, M1, place Marker, knit to end of row.

Row 27: Work Row 6 for 23 sts, slip Marker, K3, slip Marker, knit to end of row.

Row 28: Work Row 6 for 23 sts, slip Marker, M1, K3, M1, slip Marker, knit to end of row.

Repeat increases until there are 13 sts inside the Markers:

29: Work established pattern, K5 inside Markers.

30: Cable row. M1, K5, M1

31: Work est, K7 inside Markers.

32: M1, K7, M1

33: Work est, K9 inside Markers.

34: M1, K9, M1

35: Cable row. Work est until Marker 1, M1, slip Marker, K11, slip Marker 2, M1, knit to end of row. (There are now 43 sts outside Markers.)

36: M1, K11, M1. (Knit extra sts according to pattern.)

Row 37: {K1, P1, K4, P1}; repeat 2 times. K1, P1, K extra st, remove Marker 1, slip 13 sts onto stitch holder. Temporarily transfer extra st onto old needle, replace Marker 1, transfer extra st onto new needle, remove Marker 2, K extra st, place Marker 2, knit to the end of row. (There should be 41 sts on DPNs and 2 sts in between Markers.)

Rows 38: {K1, P1, K4, P1}; repeat 2 times. K1, P1, slip Marker 1, K2, slip Marker 2, knit to end of row.

Row 39: {K1, P1, K4, P1}; repeat 2 times. K1, P1, remove Marker 1, slip 2 sts onto extra DPN, remover Marker 2, knit to end of row. (There should be 41 sts on DPNs.)

Row 40: {K1, P1, C4B, P1}; repeat 2 times. K1, P1, knit to end of row.

Work as established:

41, 42, 43

Row 44: {K1, P1, K4, P1}; repeat 4 times. {K1, P1, K4} to adjust for 41 sts.

Row 45: {K1, P1, C4B, P1}; repeat 2 times. {K1, P1, K4, P1}; repeat 2 times. {K1, P1, K4}.

Rows 46 – 47: Repeat Row 44.



Remove 13 sts from stitch holder and place evenly over 3 needles. Add 2 extra sts from DPN to the beginning and the end of the new row. K15. Knit 2 more rows, BO. I’m not sure if something got turned around, and I knit against the grain, in a manner of speaking, but the thumb didn’t turn out quite right.

Back (left) and front (right) sides of right fingerless glove. The transfer back to the extra purling can be seen at the top of the palm (feels more noticeable than it looks), and somehow the thumb got a bit…unique.

Lent (iii)

While I found it interesting to read some of the pages on Queer Saints when doing research for part of a play (working title Judas Kiss), I don’t really have a personal investment in reconciling centuries of shifting historical attitudes with being a queer Christian. I took my dog out of that fight years ago because it didn’t seem like I could reconcile traditional church messages with being queer (and other reasons), and I’m pretty sure I’ve talked about that elsewhere when explaining how I wound up in pagan and polytheist circles. I know in one of my chats with my QT dead that I was prompted to dig into some of my Christianity inflicted wounds surrounding this, but unfortunately, it’s not exactly an unheard of experience, so I’m not currently going to go find it to share here.

Some parts of my family were/have been involved with the United Methodist Church, and as of drafting this out (6 March), it’s not that far from a big announcement that made national news about the UMC voting to uphold its ban on same-sex marriage and ordaining queer individuals [link]. The decision passed in a 53 percent to 47 percent vote, and there are questions about some sort of split being possible because it’s not a clear cut ‘everybody agrees’ matter. When I look at some of these Queer Christian perspectives, I think of people who are not yet my ancestors, my living Queer siblings, who don’t want their answer to religious conflict to be walking away.

I can’t deny that I personally had to go through an anti-Christian phase as a teen, in order to work out some of the baggage and scabbing wounds, but I’ve been trying to do better. I had a dear friend in high school who was an ally and quite Catholic, and I know the Catholic girl I had a crush on had a different kind of struggle because she didn’t want to stop being Catholic. (Sometimes looking back at who you’ve known and crushed on certainly answers why you have occasional bouts of blasphemy kink.) I don’t have the space to list off all of the Christians I’ve encountered or know who actually are queer themselves or queer accepting, but needless to say, they do exist. Trying to not poke fun at Christians isn’t going to absolve my QT dead of their respective wounds, but sometimes, letting those instances slide is a moment of acknowledging their complexity.

Stop Islamophobia and White Supremacy

Lady Of The Lake

This morning: 49 dead, 48 hospitalized from a mass shooting and attack on two mosques in Christchurch in Aotearoa (New Zealand). White supremacists planned and carried out the attacks. The gunman live-streamed the carnage.

In-depth coverage of the incident from Democracy Now. The commentaries from Qasim Rashid, a lawyer and human rights activist, and Farid Hafez, a lecturer and researcher at the University of Salzburg, are extremely important.

This is the latest horror to require a repudiating response and a strong call to action and solidarity from activist allies who oppose Islamophobia, structural and personal racism, anti-Semiticism, anti-immigration hate, and so on. (Have any of us done enough? I know I haven’t.)

Here are two opinion pieces just published in The Guardian.

“After Christchurch, Muslims need more than just your thoughts and prayers” by
Masuma Rahim, a clinical psychologist. A quote from her editorial piece:

“Your thoughts and prayers…

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Monthly Brocean

In “Brocean”, I introduced a Face of Poseidon, but I wasn’t really sure about how to go about acknowledging Him after He showed up, so I went poking around a blog, Baring the Aegis, that I found helpful back before this blog existed when Hestia was around.

I wound up with three days of importance: 1) one of the days with Poseidon’s name attached to it in the Hellenic month, day 8 after the Noumenia (dark moon + 7 = basically the 1st Qtr), 2) the end of the month (Deipnon), and 3) the beginning of the month (Noumenia). It’s not a straight forward Hellenic practice because I didn’t have to acknowledge Agathos Daimon or any yearly holy days for Anyone. This falls a bit too close to the minimum for Hellenics, which winds up pulling in general acknowledgement of the Hellenic pantheon, and I wasn’t cleared for that category of Hellenic interaction.

This means that the Deipnon wasn’t actually observed with sacrifices or offerings to Hekate, but more along the lines of being an ideal time for cleaning and cleansing the home, any physical shrine spaces, and renewing wards. For someone with an online shrine space more so than physical ones, it’s also an ideal time for blog maintenance and cleaning e-shrines. Rather than giving offerings to several Theoi, the Noumenia was more just the start of the Hellenic month (important for orientation when counting the days to Poseidon’s day).

Now (almost 2 years later), it can be helpful to have the 1st Qtr as a monthly baseline for remembering and acknowledging Poseidon, but I don’t have to limit myself to only doing activities or emotional work on that day. (The process of acknowledging my emotions when they’re happening means I have to roll with when they come up (and they don’t exactly schedule that).) I’m also allowed to still have designated cleansing and physical cleaning days during the month. Using the Hellenic timing of Deipnon and Noumenia might be helpful, but I don’t have to get caught up in doing those specific rituals.

Bargain Matinee Prayer Shawl (wip)

Right now, this project is sort of just chilling at the bottom of my bag with its huge skein.

Pattern by Alice’s Embrace

From the start, I knew this wasn’t going to be exactly as written because I have US 8 circular needles (not 13) and I want to use the 14 oz worsted skein from my stash (instead of bulky yarn). However, I still cast on as written [58] because I wasn’t 100% sure just how different what I have would turn out to be, so I’m at a place where I can more clearly see that this is a glorified scarf in width right now.

I dropped a stitch and messed up the whole pattern at an earlier point, so I mentally need the stitch markers to keep track of where I am. I also didn’t actually do 10 rows for the top border seen here.

I don’t particularly want to knit a scarf this long, so I’m debating what to do. I can’t really escape committing to frogging, but I want to know what I’m going to do before I start the very easy process of unraveling.

Option 1: Try double stranding. Because I don’t have enough of this yarn for the full length (58 in, not including borders), I’d have to adjust to a shorter length.

Option 2: Cast on extra stitches so I can do more sequences. Yeah, I might have to go with a bit of a shorter length, but I don’t think it’ll be quite as drastic as with double stranding.

I hadn’t planned on sharing my notes when I wrote this out (sorry).

For someone who isn’t terribly fond of math, I picked a hobby with some math in it. As you can see in my representation of what’s happening in the pattern of knitting stitches together and yarn overs, I have to stick with adding a multiple of 12. Adding 4 or 5 sequences is going to be awfully close to just double stranding, but 1 or 2 barely seems noticeable. I think 3 sequences will get me close to the 20 in width this shawl is supposed to be aiming for.

CO 94.

K5 – 7 – 6 – 5 – 4 – 3 – 2 – 1 – K5